I spoke with the Vet today. The cytology report wasn't so good :( What he did the other day was take a fluid sample from the lump -- Anthony Weiner (seriously, the humine Anthony Weiner seriously needs to be poked with something). The Vet said there was a very high probability that there were cancerous cells. He was talking about all of these "blasts" things... and honestly, at the time I was too upset to really comprehend.
It isn't a lipoma. So... one option is to do a biopsy to see exactly what the cells are -- and then probably surgery -- or, go straight to the surgery and have the entire lump removed. Tomorrow they are going to call me with an estimate of the cost of the surgery. So, I am opting for the surgery. Finding the funds to pay for the surgery might be a little difficult (I've been off work for over three months) -- but, he WILL have the surgery, and hopefully, as I have always hoped -- Farfel will live forever. Funny thing, Farfel's Vet called about an hour after my Doc called to give me my surgery date to exchange these THINGS I have in my chest. My surgery is June 22. At the time I got the news, I was excited, relieved, and happy to be rid of these things -- now... Farfel is my concern.
On a very happy note, while I was at the Vets, he gave me some anti-inflammatory meds for Farfel. His exact words -- "In 24 to 48 hours, you will have a news dog!" It's true. Farfel is acting like a puppy, he has energy, and has been jumping on my bed like a crazy-man! He is very happy. He really isn't like a new dog, because Farfel is always Farfel no matter what -- but he is a more energetic!!! Farfel and I are happy :)
One thing I will not do is -- if it has spread, and Farfel would need Chemo -- I won't do that to him. Yes, I want him to live forever, and yes, I know he isn't -- but, I can't put an animal through a chemo regimen -- or anything that would be painful, make him sick, and just basically prolong his death because I can't part with him. As intelligent as Farfel is -- there are things he just can't express to me, and in no way could I live with myself if I would be putting him through anything that would be inhumane.
If there comes a time when he has to be put down -- I will be there with him. I know many people who cannot be with their pet during that time. It is totally understandable. I have felt the same way at times. It will be one of the most difficult things I would ever have to do -- but, I will be there with him. He is my best friend :) I love him :)
I didn't mean for this to turn out depressing. I have a million thoughts going through my head. I am sure Farfel will be just fine, and I am thinking positive thoughts -- but sometimes, during times like these, the reality thoughts have to pop in -- Farfel is a tough guy, and I know he knows it isn't time to leave me. I need him :)
Thank you for listening. It helps to write this down. I promise -- Farfel's "BackStory" is coming :) Maybe after I get my REAL fake boobies :) Star should be home soon :) Also, thank you for all of your comments, they are very much appreciated, and enjoyed :)
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